What I feel right now is fear and doubt. They have been creeping in on me for a few weeks now. Like the creepy grey mist from the vampire in the twilight series.
What am I afraid of? Taking a leap. Really jumping and going for it. I’m afraid it won’t work out. I’m afraid I will let people down. I’m afraid I will let myself down. I’m afraid that I’m not good enough. I’m afraid of failure.
So why am I telling you this? Because I need to say it out loud. Because the thing I’m scared to do is also the thing I most want to do. Because something being scary doesn’t mean I should stop and give up. Which is exactly what fear wants me to do.
I’m telling you this because I want you to know that it’s okay to be scared of the thing you want most. When things are important and they mean a lot to you, they can be scary. But don’t let fear stop you. (Unless what you want most is to snuggle tiger and then maybe you should listen to fear a little?)
I am afraid. It’s true and it’s okay. I don’t need to pretend I’m not and in fact I think it would be a mistake to pretend not to feel it. Feeling the fear let’s me know just how important this thing is to me. And I know I’m not going to let it win.
Fear doesn’t get to drive this ship. Fear doesn’t get to drive your ship either. So here is to you and me showing up each day, getting excited about our dreams, doing the work and not letting fear make us stop.
I’m afraid….. but I’m pretty excited too. Because hope is there too and she is a bad ass.
What are you afraid of? Can you feel hope too?